there is trauma in growing - pain and knots and crooked, broken limbs.
and pain in growing older, growing roots, weathering storms, scarred and carved into by countless childish hands - but with thicker bark and stronger branches, not so easy to bend.
there is thudding now in the room next door as i sit trying not to pain myself with thoughts - not to grow too fast. and so often i am stuck remembering and so often i am finding the following trace of wonderment - "this is it? this is really it?"
there is no question in this. no disbelief. just recognition and a funny feeling where the scars have healed and the skin is tender and tingles when you touch it just right -
Depressed.
Bad hair day.
Talking about the way everyone else needs to grow up this morning.
It is recommended that he write it down.
And new reading material might be perfect for this winter.
None of the old quite yet through, but sifting through has become too much reflection- memory- undone things- Guilt and worry and frustration with this lack of understanding. Yes, something new.
Maybe there are answers out there somewhere.
Existential therapy.
The swollen heart I've been given is so selfish and scared.
And I would like to offer it up from time to time - in order to let the mind rein free.
Conflict resolute in the absence of opposition - my bleeding heart is weighing me down.
The following is a cut and paste.
Main article: Existential therapy
Sigmund Freud, whom Sartre refuted systematically, was very much affected in so many of his theories by Nietzsche. Some have supposed that Thanatos and Eros were closely related to Dionysian and Apollonian aspects of Nietzsche philosophy.
One of the major offshoots of Existentialism as a philosophy is existential psychology. Sometimes termed the Third Force Psychology, this branch of psychology was initiated by Rollo May and Carl Ransom Rogers, both of whom were influenced by Kierkegaard.
With complete freedom to decide and being responsible for the outcome of said decisions comes anxiety--or angst--about the choices made. Anxiety's importance in existentialism makes it a popular topic in psychotherapy. Therapists often use existential philosophy to explain the patient's anxiety. Psychotherapists using an existential approach believe that the patient can harness his or her anxiety and use it constructively. Instead of suppressing anxiety, patients are advised to use it as grounds for change. By embracing anxiety as inevitable, a person can use it to achieve his or her full potential in life.
Humanistic psychology also had major impetus from existential psychology. Logotherapy asserts that all human beings have a will to find meaning, and that serious behavioral problems develop when they cannot find it. The therapy helps patients handle the responsibility of choices and the pain of unavoidable suffering by helping them decide to give life meaning.